Who should I be ?

I am not sure you are

Who you think you should be

I whispered to myself

As I had a cup of tea

In fact, I know you are not the person of your dreams

For too many times you sit and bemoan

The fact that others are more calm and at home

If I could drink my thoughts and ingest them for later

I believe my life would be so much greater

I could let them sit and steep for a while

The aroma would carry so others could see

How much of a good person I was meant to be

Does the person I am at the moment right now

Have what it takes to connect with the HOW

The HOW to be Good, strong and Independant

Resourceful, Happy and Charismatic

But what about Caring , Humble and emotionally Empathetic

Are these the qualities of someone who is quietly Pathetic ?

I sit and I wonder about this person I want to be

Would I forget who I am now , just a distant memory

Would I know this person if he sat up and waved

would I smile and walk over just to see how he behaves

Watch and sit down at the table with him

Drink in his thoughts just on a whim

So I sit and I ponder drinking my tea

what would it be like to be somebody else other than me

I might be a courageous creature of conscious

saving humanity and the forest

A spin thrift saving all for myself and my pleasures

I could sit in my castle and daily count all my treasures

The gambit runs wide , the river runs deep

I wonder which one of these “ SHOULDS “ I will keep

I